Wow...Life

life amazes me...i am so emotional these days...i am ready to cry at the drop of my hat...i had a wonderful time with my dad...we spoke for hours...about random things...felt really good...why cannot i be this smae person around the husband also...the husband for some reason brings out the bad in me...and i think i help him do it too..i should try to be fear less and myself as dad said and make everything better...i know i can...i have a good feeling about it...i just should remind myself what family values are and what they mean to evreyone...i dont have to be least bit insecure about the husband...i just have to life...rather than make life miserable for myself...please give me the strength to be myself...feels like i have figured out everything...this phase keep coming...but i pray this stays...let me implement it...let me be good and live